Tuesday, December 7, 2010


If you could only understand how much i play this song... this particular version has to be my most favorite of them all.....


this is for all my fellow students that are putting in the last minute work to close out this semester... if you feel anything like me right about now then im sure this would be a bit of fresh air for you.

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

St Vincent

I like to feel like I put some of you guys on to new fantastic artist when i post random videos in lieu of a real post..lol

I recently fell upon this here gem while listening to the track "Maniac" on Kid Cudi's new album. Her song was sampled on the chorus of the song... and of course with me being the person I am, immediately take to the lovely world wide web to find out more about her.
Long story short... She goes by the name of St. Vincent and is pretty damn awesome.. A true gem indeed...
Been playing her nonstop for the past couple of days

(song Kid Cudi sampled)

Thursday, November 11, 2010

What do they call me

ive been waiting for this to show up on youtube...

love love love this performance
phenomenal from all four of the ladies....
but ledisi ...... *sheeesh* o'lawdamercy

Sunday, November 7, 2010

a moment

You can't tell me Al Green doesnt make you smile.


Saturday, November 6, 2010

i lost 15lbs

....... tonsillectomy is no joke

this is just within a week

Monday, November 1, 2010

Horror story

man oh man. I havent been on blogger to actually write a "post" in months...

For a while i was debating between the fact if i should continue to post shit about myself and my life on this world wide web or if i should just stick to keeping my random rambles amongst personal friends and/or caged in the membrane.

To say the least I missed Blogger.
So I guess the only question is, where do i begin.....

well first I guess i can start with the mere fact that I am in recovery mode from a tonsillectomy I just had last wednesday and let me tell you............. worst recovery ever.(Not that I have anything to compare to it, since this is my first surgery ever.) As the days progress, I feel worst. That's some complete mind fuckerage right there. You would think as the days progress, that the pain would subside since you would technically be healing. umm no.

For those of you that dont know what a tonsillectomy is, it is the surgical procedure of the removal of the tonsils.

*cricket sounds*

Yes, you read right. I got my tonsil removed....... NO, im not 5....Yes I am grown. People always equate tonsil removal to a kiddie procedure that babies get but let me tell you adults get them done to for many adult reasons.... (sleep apnea, tonsillitis(<-no joke), enlarged tonsil, tonsil stones, strep throat, & etc). And unlike when kiddies get it, adults dont heal as fast and painless. Tonsillectomy for adults is a mental and physical WARFARE aka worst pain ever!!!! Okay, Im exaggerating but you get the jest. Well any who, before I got mines done, i scanned the internet to do a little research on what to expect to mentally prepare myself. Hell, I even asked a few people that I knew that had theirs done. And when I tell you that EVERY story that I came across was like a freaking horror story... I mean it. Each story went from everyone crying of the agonizing pain, how they lost all this weight, how they couldn't eat or do anything for weeks and even how they lost their taste buds for some months. ((O__O)) I was shook.

Hearing and reading all of this had me mentally prepared to look and feel like an abandon refugee...... I was over it! I was so over it and filled to the brim with horror stories that i was practically no longer nervous about the surgery or recovery anymore. I had excepted the fact that I was going to wither up into a dry bag of bones, so I was real nonchalant by the time surgery day came about.

*Well anyways.... fast forward a few hours after surgery.*

The first few hours after surgery was a doozy. I woke up to my nurse, sounding like my mother, yelling my name telling me to stay awake *whilst she injected sleepy pain medicine into my iv*
-______________- I couldn't stay awake for more than 5 mins......blah blah blah.. not much pain here as i was too doped up to feel anything. shit I couldnt even feel my legs... (this came to my attention after I abruptly got up to use the restroom and went tumbling face and IV forward out of my bed... heh) Anywho, after being their a few hours fighting my sleep. i grew tired and disgusted and demanded that they release me. They released me. then i slept the whole drive home. :-)

Okay off topic but back to the real story at hand..... the first two days was easy. Barely any pain, I slept like a baby.. *Special shoutout to my $60 Pain Medicine*

Pain was so miniscule, i was sleeping good, talking and eating tuna salad, yogurt and wonton soup (still soft food) like my throat wasnt a big ass open sore. Just living it up free as a bird and shit. I thought back to some of the horror stories i read and laughed. Like "ahhh sad weaklings how can this be so bad"

**Pain Medicine can make you cocky**

little did I know.

Eye before the storm. O_O

I am now on day 5 and i feel like complete dried up elephant shit.

I cant even manage to say a single word without feeling like im slicing my throat. Hell the mere task of swallowing ones spit or water is like preparing to swallow a jagged crab shell. a tear welds up in the corner of my eye every time. I cant eat anything but ice chips..
and i have headaches and ear aches that can crush any sinus infection that anyone has ever had.. intense boots. I feel like this is death. and its just day 5 of the 14 day recovery. *cries*

My once glorious pain medicine is not so glorious anymore... that shit is like blood now... i need it to just be able to eat a cup of ice... which is now my preferred meal of the day.
Hunger is not even the word to describe how i feel right now... like i get hot flashes just hearing or smelling other people eat. I tried to eat a bowl of potato soup earlier and almost felt as if i was about to throw up all my internal organ so i had to quit. Very disgusted... i wonder how much longer till i will be able to see my ribs. o_o

anywho enough wooing myself....I know this is only a temporary situation and I dont mean to scare off anyone else that is thinking about getting their tonsils removed. Regardless, of everything that i just said, I think getting my tonsils removed was one of the best decisions i have made as far as my health is concerned This temporary hell beats the chronic hell that i was experiencing with my tonsils throughout time. So if you are reading my blog/horror story, Dont let me terrify you. Go through with it. Your body will thank you.

*looks back at what I wrote* Yea so I practically wrote a entire essay for you guys with this post and didnt even go through everything that i wanted to talk about. *le sigh*

guess i'll leave it at this yummy red velvet cupcake that i wish i could devour right now.

cupcake i got from BuckHead Diner in Atlanta Georgia

next episode: The Impala Meltdown

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Thursday, October 14, 2010


I miss my lil conversations with the babies! their lil innocent minds say the cutest most darnest things.
even though this one is drugged out lol

:56 is way too funny

Wednesday, October 6, 2010


just for Dilla

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

The Day of the Women

"I Spit on Your Grave"

Im not gonna lie
i would probably go off the same way...
fuck that

Monday, September 13, 2010

Im a Fan

Such a breath of fresh air.. I love her spirit.

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Lil' P-Nut

lmaoooo this was too cute...
Eazy E reincarnated lol lol

but on some real shit my lil 7 yr old cousin can blow him out the water...
imma make him a youtube video lol

Wednesday, September 1, 2010


what does this song remind you of?

me? south carolina in my grandpa's barn... heh
(it was actually more fun than it sounds)

Saturday, August 28, 2010

You wanna know what cute is...

check out this little dumpling

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

RIP Aaliyah

I can not go through this whole day with out acknowledging Aaliyah. Before the beyonces, ciaras and rihannas came on the scene Aaliyah was rocking people's worlds. (including Damon Dash, Jayz, RKelly alike) I loved her and as most teenage girls i was completely devastated when she passed.

See, I in fact was an Aaliyah stan and on the day she died, i was up early in the morning doing what the average teenage stan does..... hawking and stalking her fan page (i was 13, what gives), thats when all of a sudden a RIP post pops up on the message board. i was like HUH?!?!?! O_O whhhhhaaaaaatttttt!
..... ran to the tv and waited........ and waited some more
Then, I saw it. Aaliyah was indeed gone...

I tell you for a 13 yr old stan that was the biggest blower before school started. but i will not get into a whole spill about the crocodile tears and sadness because there is no need for it; no more mourning.


I use to be so in love with this video, I would go as far as to actually calling The Box and requesting it ( ya'll know that shit cost). Once i bought her music video dvd set (-_-) i studied and learned the entire dance. yes the entire dance (not to mention the other videos that I memorized ).... Wait, before you think that it couldn't get any more pathetic than that, check this. I would even "passionately" sing it out loud to an nonexistent guy as if i was Aaliyah herself, all while dancing -_-
heh, i was such a weird ass.
but today i found out i wasn't the only one cause two ppl responded to me saying that they too memorized entire dance numbers from her diff videos.. so im not alone on this weirdo boat
BTW just imagine how awkward and silly i looked betweeb 1:42-2:00
i hate it all

this post, in fact looks like a 16 year old wrote it.. and im not okay with that. I enroll back in school soon. *rolls eyes*


Aaliyah also makes me think of my old childhood best friend Candace and all the many of days that i would go over her house and we would listen to her albums hours on top of hours..... ugh i miss her. RIP Candace Baby


Daft Punk "Harder Better Faster Stronger" song came on my ipod shuffle this morning and i could not stop thinkin about this video ever since. This video takes me back to a time when my brother and I were potheads and complete daft punk fanatics. we watched every video for this song.

But nothin beats this girl dancing. Like not even the daft bodies or daft hands (even though both were awesome)

I instantly fell in love with this stupid video a little over a year ago. This girl goes all the way in with her quirky yet some how groovy dancing. Don't know if it was the weed or what but i can never forget it.

If you do not smile or laugh once while watching this girl dance her nonexistent ass off you have got to be one of the most bitter ass individuals out here. lol

You cant tell me that this video doesn't make you feel like you are tripping... hard.

i die at 1:33-1:37 (her lil power kick)

Thursday, July 29, 2010

my brain

Civilization by Marco Brambilla from CRUSH on Vimeo.

"Civilization by Marco Brambilla"

Marco Brambilla will be directing Kanye's video for his single Power... with work as the one you see above. i can only imagine what this video is going to look like. I don't expect anything less than genius.

But about this piece......
what do you see?
how do you feel?

'debauchery x fake-shit-that-you-think-is-real-shit x brotherhood x sisterhood x no hood x Tyranny x unexplainable shit x beyonceism x invasions x metropolis x future and modern day dystopia x universal mind control x Illuminati(?) x and some more shit' .... mmmh

Yea. So this video pretty much sums up what the inside of my brain looks like when I am asked questions based around politics, religion, music, tv, and americans .....................

thats about it...

Friday, June 18, 2010

Beats of the Djembe drum.. Music of Mali

music like this makes my heart smile.


Thursday, June 17, 2010

I just thought I should post....

Semhar - Pretty Girl
"A Poem describing another side of "Pretty""

Check her out on youtube for more

Such a beautiful poem and such a gorgeous woman

anywayssss... just sliding through. I will be posting soon. i miss you and shit

Friday, May 7, 2010

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

hello new followers!

why hello hello

im shocked that i still get new followers even though i don't update my blog as much as i used to... im only 5 short of 100 now :-)

KOW *bougie neck roll*

The fact that I still get followers kind of makes me want to blog some more. I'll admit, I have been extremely lazy these days and have resorted to my lil ol' tumblr to keep the blogger bug away... but who am i?

I mean to be real, I actually kind of miss Blogger.

I'll be back a little later to rant about the beautiful yet ugly things in life, the crazy world that we all in live in and the places I have been in the last few months... (Philly, Cali, Vegas, ATL, home..etc) <-- alot of fuckery might i add.

oh and just an FYI.. i dont write in full complete sentences nor do I use perfect english or punctuate my words. In fact, I even make up my own words so if u have a problem...#shrug

in the meantime

Friday, March 26, 2010

Soon We'll Be Found


If you dont know of her, you need to hurry up and make yourself acquainted with her. Her music is simply beautiful and heart warming. I just love it. I've been listening to her latest album "Some People Have Real Problems" for the past week and I havent been able to put it down yet. Her voice is amazing. I say if you like Feist, Fiona Apple, Regina Spektor and or Esthero then you NEED to check SIA out. love love LOVE her.

Check the video out.

Sia | Soon We'll Be Found from Concord Music Group on Vimeo.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Wow.. i had no idea...

Diggy - Made you look Freestyle (Flow Stoopid) from Diggy Simmons on Vimeo.

so uhh yea......
i kno im late but DAMN
let me find out this lil boy has skills...
i see u Diggy

Wednesday, March 10, 2010


okay when did Payless start giving all of this straight off the runway shoe????

i mean im not gonna fake, for the past couple of seasons Payless has been stepping their game up. I have bought some bad ass wedge biker boot by featured designer Alice+Oliver from Payless but this Christian Siriano line is looking quite desirable...

For those that dont know who Christian Siriano is, he was the winner of the fourth season of Project Runway... That's all that I really know about him. But I guess that's all u need to know.

All his shoes run at about $79 ... (boy has Payless came a long way lol)

i dont know.. i may have to get a pair or something... lol

I personally am digging the blue ones for myself. As you can see to the right (pictured with Christian Siriano) Amber Rose rocked a pair not too long ago for NY fashion week. (dont know if she just wore them for his show or what.. but none the less, they are still hot)


these are pretty hot too

Im diggin it.

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

This is what its suppose to look like

OMG.. im soooooo happy that somebody in Kid Cudi's camp snapped out of it and gave him a video for his single "Pursuit of Happiness" that actually at least tries to capture the ambiance of his style and music... that first video with the champagne, girls and other stupid looking dressed up people (including Drake), was horrific and i hated it so. I mean dont get me wrong, It has some underlying message to it but i still didnt like it. The new video is similar to the direction that he needs to go... Plus I was kind of happy to see that Ratatat made an appearance. :-)

i hope they got rid of the visual director that did his first one. Bad bad treatment, just... just plain awful...

peep the new video below and then the first ratchet one below it.



Monday, March 8, 2010

Gilt sales McQueen

Gilt is having a McQueen sale today until the 10th of this month. ((3/8-3/10))

If you are not familiar with Gilt by now, please get yourself acquainted here:


Gilt sells and features alot of high fashion designers garments, handbags, and jewelry for more than 50 percent off of the actual retail price. Its kind of like a sample/secret sell. (First come first served kind of thing) If you are interested be sure to click on the link above and get to shopping.
enjoy :-)

Friday, March 5, 2010

uhhh wow

lil kobe in the making

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

You wanna now why I love Kanye

KANYE WEST "Coldest Winter" Directed by: NABIL "ITUNES link below" from nabil elderkin on Vimeo.

its because of shit like this...
and the countless other things that he does.. i dont care about anything else.

one day i will shall work with him....

Monday, February 22, 2010

i wonder

imagine what life is like when you live in one of these things

im sure it's nothing less than amazing...

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

DIY till I DIE

Okay so anybody that knows me knows that I'm a Die hard do-it-yourself kind of chick...

I mean i will do anything and everything myself if possible. And Im not talking about limiting that to just fashion/clothes and lil nifty trinkets. No. I can do few home improvements... you know the whole nine..build shit, fix shit, paint shit, etc lol... With me, the sky is the limit (yet of course i leave big projects to the big guys. lol)
I just always like to have my own stuff, that's how I've always been. My mom pretty much raised me that way, it makes everything that much more personable.

So anywayssss, enough about me.

I just so happened to run up on this lovely DIY website called "PS-I made this..." from fashion website Whowhatwear. This website features many fabulous fashion projects that just about every last one of you can do... At first I was gonna be stingy and keep it all for myself but i figured that you'll see it sooner or later (plus it wouldn't be fair) so why not share...

So moving along.... this particular DIY that I am featuring was inspired by the Proenza Schouler SS 2010 Ready- to-Wear collection....

Yes u to can be high-end fly

Erica Domesek, of "PS-I made this..", teamed up with WhoWhatWear to produce a Designer DIY for all of us Poor Little Rich Girls.... For the instructions and everything else.. simply click on the image below..

I personally can not just recreate this piece to the exact detail... i feel like that is in some form creating a fake or bootleg version of the $1,335 real thing... but i would put a twist to it and switch the colors up, even though the blue and yellow is absolutely magnifit


Sunday, February 14, 2010

♥ Day

i was gonna actually write a decent post for today.. but now i dont feel like it...

so im just gonna leave you with this cute lil video by Kina Grannis

btw this is what my valentines day looks like....

yes dried up roses


anyways... I hope everyone has a wonderful day.. its not over yet

♥ ya

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Jump in the Air ...& Stay there

I've been looking for a link to this video for the past week... finally found it on youtube.. =)

Cant wait for her new album

Part 2.
New Amerykah

Friday, February 12, 2010

The snows melting...

I'm gonna "kind of" miss it

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Obey : Art for Haiti

Was on my daily blog reads when I came across this post from one of my favorite bloggers ....
*check her out, dope blog*

" The Obey team (including Shepard Fairey of Obama poster fame) designed a limted edition poster to raise money for Haiti relief efforts.
Only 450 prints will be made and they are $50 on the obey.com website.
All proceeds go to relief efforts! "

Art supports the Relief!

(btw I have a few pieces from Philly that I would like to post on Haitian art.. stay tuned)

R.I.P. McQueen

Alot of people, may not know who this man is (some probably dont care) but watever...He's name is Alexander McQueen.

Today he was pronounce dead. It is believe that he committed suicide..

I normally don't do post like this.. but its so unexpected.
I really dont have much to say because I didn't know the man personally. But he was one of the few fashion designers that I actually looked forward to seeing. Im no fashionista, but it was something about his work that was so intriguing. In my opinion, he was a creative genius. He was not just a fashion designer to me...he pushed the envelope.. gave us something to look at. Creating things that you normally don't see in the fashion world...
Because of that, I was really inspired by this man....

Sad to know that this creativity is gone.
many blessings and prayers to his family


sorry i just kind of threw the pictures up here.. but u get it

RIP to Alexander McQueen

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Thursday, February 4, 2010



i clearly need to update and change the look of my blog, cause as of right now... i HATE it.

As a matter of fact.. think imma get back to my bloggin tomorrow..
got alot of shit on my chest.

see u soon.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Even Angels learn how to Fly

I just love Fantasia

beautiful, beautiful song

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

I have a dry sense of humor

... dont know about ya'll but i found this to be hilarious... google maps is a swindle like shit.. u will always find your ass in a ditch somewhere in west bubbafuck... smdh lol

Wednesday, January 13, 2010


miss me?

Im late but Happy New Years to you all! Whether you partied till the sun came up or stayed in with family and loved ones, I hope that u entered the New Year and Decade with a new mindset and new goals. If there are some things that you want to get accomplished or places to travel too. NOW is the time. Time is not ours. So get the moving and pursuing.

I have feeling in the pit of my gut that this year will be a beautiful one.

Peace and god bless. Send a special prayer out to Haiti.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010


ask me whatever your heart desires... http://formspring.me/BonitaStar